Unable, disabled. 

Awkward silences, looks that kill, my subconscious is screaming, but my mouth is still. I’ve tried to explain before, attempted to make sense of this mess. But despite my efforts the reward still goes to the one who knows less. It’s said that ignorance is bliss, a phrase I used to believe. But lately my beliefs are a hit or miss with original thoughts only becoming harder to conceive. I guess you could say I’m confused, I’m lost. Trying to find a stable thought but they’re all turned and tossed. I desperately want to be heard, I need to be understood.™